Unfilled Void

Unfilled Void I can’t bring myself to pretend that, I need them to be a part of my life as is. It’s never really fair because there here to be loved, and wouldn’t know the difference unless the energy was that negative. Yes animals pick up on the negative energy you give off upon them, and with that often comes a negative responds. Ky, and Hazel have been a special part of my life since they were not even five weeks old. Now almost a year old, I rather them to continue without me from this moment on. Mistake it not, I will always love cats. They are my first love as the ever so beautiful feline species, but in this new error, I won’t ever own another cat of my own because being force to give up on the two that meant the most spark a need to have something take the place, and now the guilt has torn me to make this decision…. A decision that has been lingering about for a few months. My fiancé wanted to make sure that, I was okay with that decision because he knows how much, I love them, and with him loving me makes me know I’m doing the right thing by them. Maybe a part of him will miss them too. He’s not truly a cat lover, and he allow me to get them because he knew, I felt, I needed them. It’s called support. Which is what we all need. In the ending this has allowed me to see just how important my future decisions making should be. You can get a animal, and if it doesn’t work out you can ether find it a new home, or deal with the forever downfall. Like people most are stuck in their ways, and nothing can be done, but a whole shit load of patients. Not like a child in which when the time comes expected, or unexpected you can’t be like ok let’s find this baby a new home. This will never happen with me. My kids will be my life, and that’s not up for discussion. Life has a funny way of throwing curve balls, and maybe it’s time for me to hit a homerun August'Lamarr