So Easily Tainted

Before, I state my opinion on the matter at hand. Not everybody is like this, and for those who have made this bad for others, I can’t take it back. Nor will, I …. I don’t speak for those, I can only speak for August’Lamarr … That’s it & that’s all. Noticed of Notice when a different lifestyle is at stake upon the approval of others, I don’t appreciate the back lash, I get from the wrongful problems others seem to have cause… So once upon of time, I say this because my life is my life, and you would never know the joys, and pains of my life unless you fully aware of me, but most would rather at a distance, and this is where the ignorance begins again to veer the nastiness inside such a small picture frame. Let me clarify for the less like to catch on, I had a conversation the other day that help me to realize something that I’ve already known for so many years. We as different tend to push that negativity on others in a sense. It’s not enough for it to be just ok by a select few. We push over our bounds, and end up just as we never wanted to end up. All alone. Prime example… Straight, and Gay bringing these worlds together has been a endless effort still going on to this day. Much progress has been made, but I’ve had straight men tell me that it’s so hard to be friends with a gay person because the lack of respect they have by not respecting the fact that he as a straight man crossing way beyond certain boundaries, and this has nothing to do with their always growing friendship. Now this is what happens in a lot of cases. The gay friend has a certain attraction for the straight friend for various reason. May it be because he is a good man in his eyes. He wants him sexually. He see this as another nieve way of convincing himself that the guy is sending mix signals, and he wants him in some way, shape, form, or fashion. So he always makes it his business by talking about how he’s good at sucking dick, and he can do this, this, and that which in the end results turns the straight friend off. No straight man wants to hear about those things coming from another man. Not stopping there, or realizing that this is taking place he proceeds to continue every chance he gets to find ways to lure his not so impress what so ever friend into ether being with him, or in most cases sleeping with him. Straight men already struggle with pride, and ego issues let alone wouldn’t ever want to be caught around a bunch of raging homosexuals, but to take a chance by being best friends with a gay guy, and risk it all to be stereotyped. Only to regret it all because you couldn’t respect his boundaries. He puts up with this because he loves you as his friend ( ONLY ) Hard to believe, I know but some are cut this way. So why the hell would you blow it . All scars don’t hell back the same way. Not only that, but for some it also causes confusion. Rather they want to own it, or not it does damage to the mental process. Straight men don’t want to think of themselves as anything less than a Man, and having those particular feelings of anything possible about you, or anything that looks like you would prove to be more than he could bear, and to escape it all he finds it much easier to just de friend you altogether. Now you lost the only friend that truly understood you that wasn’t like you, and honestly blinded buy your own selfishness. He did as well…. You have to give people there space to inquire on their own. Straight men have so much baggage, and if you think for one minute this could work in your favor by your means of force. Maybe all you would be is a fuck, and if you’re willing to reduce yourself to this. When in your mind you wanted this man to be so much more then he was willing to give you. Than sadly life has taught you the biggest lesson you might want to pay close attention to next time.