Women & Anal Games

What's up Darlings, I come to you on this side note to get some feed back on this topic which, I feel it's a big misconception of. Now granted some women are into different things sexually, but the sex acts are in a males eye should be, or are pretty basic, and then such becomes boring. So what happens when a woman wants to take things a step further, and anally simulate her man. This arises a issue in the man because now he feels that his so called man hood is challenged, and preforms like a damn fool all because his woman feels like she could just once be in demand. He's not GAY Of course not because there will be no man present. This is clearly a act of a woman wanting to feel like she has what he always has in the bedroom. All of her, and me personally I feel nothing is wrong with that. If a woman has to has limits all the time. What makes you think she should give in to everything that you want to do. Now nobody said bend him over, and pound the hell out of him with strap on. Unless he agrees to it. All I'm saying when introducing something new as serious as this is to most men. Start slow. With a tongue at first because if it feels weird at least there is no pain included. Then when he's okay with that go on to a more advance method. So many men are so quick to scream that's GAY, But a woman is doing it your woman. So you mean to tell me that if your girl gives you ass play all of a sudden you going to turn into a raging flaming homosexual. Let me let you in on something. IF... that is the case. You was already that way, and it took her to simulate you to bring it to the light. It's nothing gay about a woman wanting to have freedom to her man. Its just your insecurities that wont allow. So what are your feelings on this case...

When No One Gets It

Late night thoughts of a very observing individual, I mean have you ever been on a social site, Facebook, Myspace, Tagged, and others & the same people on your friend list is ranting about the same shit day in and day out, and no matter how much, and or words of inkaragment them receive it still persist on another day. Those be the ones that never respond to any of the comments__________ Silence right, I feel at that point, I take the time to read the issue o yeah. IF it's that serious, and I be wanting to comment, but if my efforts are a waste then to me there really is no point. Do you take the advice because nothing is said at least if you can't say something in regards to the post you can say Thanks, but on the real I said that up top to say this. Sometimes the crowd you with, or hang with on a regular basis. Even if it's been your partner sense your extremely young. Not everybody knows how to deal with certain feelings especially if its not what yal us to dealing with because its always been a certain way. Granted not everybody feels comfortable talking to people they don't know but in all reality talking to a complete stranger about something unrelated to the problem almost is always a eye opener. So before you turn your nose to getting the help that you need to make you feel better, and come to a better decision with your life because if your methods was working you would see that your friends, and family can't or wont help because they can't stop being bias, and when you give advice to a person you have to be bias, and that means for those that are dumb. It means not judging the issue based on your feelings for the person. Clearly Tunnel Vision. Test it out in the mist of looking for some pussy with your boys, and bust out and get in your feelings, and see the reaction you get. If anything you going to feel stupid as fuck, and then shut thee fuck up about it cause they going to clown you about being in them. Take my advice, and find another outlet on things because it's nothing worse than having so many friends, but not one of them gets it, and with that you pretty much all alone

Kory Kong aka Kory Mitchell Spotlight & Views

Once Kory Kong now Kory Mitchell granted the name change is becoming since he said he didn't nor has he ever liked the name Kong. It was giving to him in the beginning of his porn career, and it kinda stuck. Anyway people would Google him, and think that from that sparked a sudden interest, but that's actually only out of a 100% maybe 20% the rest is that of trying to see if he was just like any other attractive male porn star, or could he, or did he have a better out look he seemed to be well rounded, and down to earth. We seem to think that because they are porn stars they can't have a regular life outside of the work, and that the biggest misconception is that they are all whores, and got into the industry merely for sexual reason, but truth can be told that's not the reason for everybody, I say this because most people are money driven, and will block out anything else involving making it long as it gets them to where they need to be. What made me kinda interested in him in the first place was because I seen past pictures of him, and that sparked a search I wonder if the fact of the matter is when find this amazing picture of a person on the internet yet to have heard them speak, and when you do hear them __________ You see silence. Which means he doesn't sound as he look, but then he is from another country. He's very Intelligent, and it still doesn't take away anything. Most Porn Stars are No Brighter than a bag of Bricks all white BRICKS. Another interesting fact is that he is a Bareback HIV Positive Porn Star, and he doesn't hide the fact he's straight forward letting the porn companies know up front. Say what you want. You have to respect that. ( I LUV THIS GUY MORE WE HAVE TO HANG KORY ) He's also a is a Activist for HIV Awareness, but some still would find this disturbing because of the porn companies look to promote unprotected sex. Being as though condoms wasn't a thing of interest back in vintage porn. Where most of them are dead from contracting all kinds of unknown illnesses, and or suicide, drugs and a bunch of cant takes. Why would they want to rewrite history for a greater audience shits me, but more companies are giving a what the fuck who cares this is what people pay to see, and this is what we make our money from, and will continue to promote. My views are the ones who have contracted the viruses are the ones that have to deal with what happens next, and some feel since it has already happened to me, and him. Why wear a condom now. Sad but true, I don't Judge because, I have my fair share of shit I've done in my life, but these are just my views, and opinions. PS I love Bareback & it gets the Raw Edge I need hints the part why I don't judge lol. Let me know what you think about Kory Mitchell, and Bareback Porn of today???

Random Happenings So Far

Sometimes when you embark on a new self being. You find out things about yourself you prolly wouldn't have known was there. Just like when I walked outside this morning, and got swamped in a Wynter Wonder Land, but as to my demise it didn't last very long, but for the most part it was rather beautiful, I mean a few days before coming home the snow was so heavy coming down. Driving in the middle of the road seemed reasonable, but even then you couldn't see the road. How was, I suppose to know they had a cartoon about Fish as in like Fish Police, I ran across it when I Google. As in Google Sex Kitten Holli Would from the Movie Cool World. Which I was not thinking about going blonde. Then careful consideration help me back to blonde from red soon, I washed, and it looked like my hands were fuggin bleeding in the shower, I later remembered that Red Hair fades like crazy, and the best option is to wash not as often, and use cold water, or well as cold as you can stand it. Anyway I decided to pick a hairstyle with the blonde outlook, and pick Charlize Theron look from the J'adore commercial. Somehow in the mist of my Holli Would search, I was like this hairstyle is much better without the exaggerated mushroom downward thingi, I mean if you can understand that even though she is a sex symbol Holli Would is still a cartoon, and some points are exaggerated Now back to the hair. It is a up do in which would be new to me since I've always done etha short, or super long, but that little piece she seems to have in the back like somewhere in the middle, I figure its a loose bun, but not a bun. You see what I'm saying, I care not So in conclusion, I said all this to ramble a little, and let you know what has been going on, and last but not least my series is in a somewhat rewrite because that of any didn't showcase what August'Lamarr is all about at the growth, I sort of dumbed it down foe a better view of things but in reality why. That's what, I said. Thanks for Listing

Spoiler Alert

The Owl name is Heart. Lets see how much this shakes things up for Kolor'O

Rhi'Rhi Complex

This picture of Rhi'Rhi This gurl is Amazing ...... My opinion Not yours

Order

I figured out a few things that I hadden look at before. Some things about my life that, I just felt it was time to get in order like my O so hidden career, I had a talk with my finace the other night just about some thing, I realized in myself that was screaming for a change. In conclusion to that the answer even though aren't that simple, but time heals all wounds if you allow them too. If not you in up possibly end up somewhere you might not want to be, and if that's the case you would have lived without no real meaning, I will compose a list of things that will be checked off, I've also decided to go forth with my wedding as a result it will be well planned, and set in 2015 which allows me plenty of time to get my shit in order, I need stable & that's what I aim for the greatest, I want the life I never had, and money will not be that of a option. So I leave you with this for now

Over Coming

I took the time to recognize that, I needed to take some time to myself & adjust to my life as a whole. Talking to my fiance maybe was in fact the best way to do things, I don't have much to offer other than the troubled ways of my past & trying to take a stand to overcome all need to move forward........ Wish me Luck & I will keep you all posted

Updates

I guess everybody is wondering why I switched backed to my Blogspot ... Simple I did this mainly because Tumblr wasn't giving me the Insight EXPOSURE that, I been longing for At least here, I can channel the views of where my last post, and the views of my potential audience, I like that without having to go threw a bunch of red tape this is effective. In other news, I am still working on my latest project. My T.V series out this summer if not this summer. Sometime this fall, but I will always keep my viewers updated on the latest

R.I.P Freddy E

I wasn't going to touch basis on this story, but on some I do. All, I have to say is that shit is real... Could this have been prevented if the right person was around to stop him from pulling the trigger. Yes of course THIS TIME!!! but what happens if it had of been the next time. So many can't accommodate with the pressures the world fixate on the mental, and often at times the individuals at risk hides this, and we don't know. Sometimes you can have so many people in your circle & still feel so alone because you feel nobody gets it. So you only share what is always talked about upon which is usually a bunch of Bullshit. Crying out to be understood, and help, but nobody sees it________________ Then when the pressure comes to a head, and in that split second cause that's all it takes. A life is ended So how can you watch if there's nobody there. Who cares why he did it in the end he still did it Nobody knew what he was feeling other than his Tweets. Which led us to see that it was premeditated because up to his last tweet. He let the world know just some of what he was feeling. Can we talk to him now ( NO ) Am I sorry it happen .... Of Course, but surprised ... No This life seem to be a race against forever time, and once we learn we can't outrun it. We can only face it, and some of us are alone, but all of us can't deal with it & in ending result we Take it. August'Lamarr Astrange

ASAP Rocky

This is a Beautiful Mofo Here ASAP Rocky I mean everybody asking me is he gay, or just in touch with his the Fem Side of things, I mean can't a man be a man without acting like a pure Nigga. He likes to be a lil fem at times & whether or whether not he's Gay, or or Bi ... To me that shit don't matter because in all honesty he's becoming one of my Fav Rappers with a lot more to offer than his Fashion Sense. So until he does somethinga to disrespect me as a person, I Luv my 4th Babi Daddy This has been August'Lamarr Astrange & I Approve this Message

Haunting Darkness

Life after Death, I mean I often thought of it, and how would it be. How could it be, or is that the life, and death are already here. If I die, and that's it then what would, I have to look forward to.  As a child, I was  told that it's a much peaceful world after life in itself, But some aren't so sure of this. Who am I to argue their belief when, I don't understand some what it took to get them to there understanding that somehow our God is not real, and how is it possible to believe in something that could very well be a figment of our imagination. Most of you only call upon him when you're in trouble, but know nothing of him when things are at peace. Well let me let you in on a little secret, or not. My mind is already in the land of make believe.. Set so, I could live everyday as a cartoon in which, I kloud ride in the early morning, and would live in a place like Cool World by night. The life of a Ghost cause I'm suppose to be dead remember, but the grown ups lied about having a peaceful world because somewhere in between this so called life. It was a small fraction of green, or was it indigo. Ether way it was there, I didn't know yet, but he was already dead, I crossed over unknowingly touching his invisible light. Wait, I don't understand what is a invisible light. He said a light that separated our worlds we know as life, and then death. Visible to him. Yet invisible to them. Upon your passing across dimmed the light that has now forever bonded us together. We can only cross over together or not at all. He was a black cat that had one eye, and appear to had been tortured, beating, and bruised , I believe he suffered, but I dare not to ask at least not at first. Some how in my sick twisted mind. If I could have had a ghost cat amongst the living, I imagined it would have been him. O but you do now. Only difference is we are of the dead. So now you may lived in such a place outside your mind if that be the clouds above, or in the depths of what you a imagined a cool world would be. A grave yard is where our once living remains shall be. Undisturbed, and without intrusion.. However this marks a brand new journey for us. They say individuals in life cross paths for a reason, but this is also true amongst the decease, I came to this place not at my on doing. How, I appear is how, I was, and that is how you appear here. Your disease fatality summoned your death like appearance. At some point before this tragedy you were a beautiful girl. The world is not meant for us to understand he said to me, and that made more sense then anything, but how did, I get here from telling you a reasonable theory of what certain individuals believe between life and death... To actually somehow lying to rest myself. Then my understanding became clear, I had fallen to rest, and dreamed of such a new era, and before, I had a chance to open my eyes, I faded into an invisible light......His name is Dark.

                   By August'Lamarr Astrange

                                                                                 

Puzzled Mind At Timez

You get like that in relationships, but is it wrong not to give so much of yourself all the time, or maybe not even half of the time, I sort out & wanted a relationship so bad mentally scarring myself to the possibility of being happen Ion think it could be him CAUSE It's me, and I know it's me I'm not everything somebody would want just yet. Matter of fact I don't think I've ever been cause until now long lasting just wan't possible, I was just running into individual men that wanted or needed to have just a right now. Goes to show you what kind of men that I linked up with..  some of the lowest of the 3rd world kind, but if the list was presented then you might fall back inside yourself as a result of brain trauma, I didn't have the sense to not be so forward with them thinking if I could be something more to them. Then maybe they would call more, or spend more, and care even more. The cat was just a escape goat, and I went threw about 8 or 11 including the babies that Micah had in a nearby tree, I miss her because I spent the most time with her, and she was my 3rd cat, I remember them all Scar was a girl, I got from my block. Later came Gisel, and then Micah. Maybe this was a sign that losing or giving them up was a way to say my life, and happiness was temp & those things of any good wouldn't be a long term remain, I said all this to say that now I have what I want, and my head is even more at a solitary stand still. I've gone threw so much emotionally that, I don't feel like at times, I belong here in this one, and I've already lost 2 more cats Charlie, Chubbi, and a Dogg Free. Is this a sign that it's history repeating itself all over once more, or is it just me not allowing myself to get over the bumps made into stops signs in the past. None of this has to be but it is. Which says a lot about my current fucked up mind state, I don't have all the answers, but If I can write. You can read it how many times you would like to inturpit your own feel of what goes on in your reality, and or mines, I can only tell you how I feel, and nobody else life has anything to do with my current. Do what you will with it, but what's simple to you isn't always that simple to the next.

SHIIIIIIII Pt 1

I told her that I didn't want to have a Babi but she said in this world on this planet only Men can bare children, but where would it come out from. She replied that's not my problem, I want this child, and if you can't somehow produce it. Well then you will pay for it with your life, and I will then inpreggo you anyway, and my babi will then feed off of your Host. Men are no good here from what you've done to women for so long. Wait was this a dream, or a Night mare, or both. So if, I somehow cared about living which maybe maybe not. Just how would, I obtain this fertilized egg. She said here take this, and drink this It was a pink pill, and a glass of what looked like vomit, and other shit. It smelled like shit. It looked worse, but she said it would keep the baby from feeding on me while it grew, and get this, I would only be preggo for 60 fuggin days, I couldn't keep the baby, but I did get to keep my life. FUCK, FUCK, FUCK I want my baby. This is some sick twisted shit. She laughed, I woke up used the bathroom, and noticed, I gained a few pounds since the night before. SHIIII I rushed to the mirror, and realized it wasn't a dream. It was reality, I have to get the hell out of here before she finds me, and I HAVE TO GIVE HER MY BABY.... TO BE CONTINUED

SHIIIIIII Pt 2

I call myself escaping this crazy bitch that’s trying to take my unborn baby, and for the life of me this shit sound crazy as fuck, and I’m showing like literally showing. Line down my stomach, and some mo shit, and it’s kicking me. Anyway, I failed to let yal know, I was my truck. Ummm, I got a umm shit what the fuck is this. A suburban that, I had to stop, and put gas in the car, and f this girl catch up with me I’m sure to end up in a place, I won’t be found. Maybe, I could just scream rape. Anyway it pissed me off not because, I had to stop. Well that pissed me off to, I paid this clerk 60 on pump twenty three 60 yal know you can lock the release on some pumps. I went to look in the car to get my keys cause, I was nervous, I mean I get nervous, but 2 seconds and the son of bitch clicked, I looked, Aint no gas in this car, but the shit read 60. My last 60 how far was, I going to get on.. Never mind, I jumped in my shit turn the keys in the ignition, and said fuck it, I figure it was a few hours so maybe, I had more gas then I thought, I was well on my way. So, I thought next thing, I knew all these black feathers started spiraling in and around the seat, and I’m looking at the shit, but trying to also concentrate on the road. So, I won’t lose control of the wheel, and kill my damn self, and then worried, I might be ready to might my maker anyway. She appeared within them feathers. Of course, I started hollering like a lil bitch, after that episode. She said you might want to calm down cause you carrying my baby, and o were you going somewhere. She looked in the backseat. Looks like you headed… Exactly where are you headed with a overnight bag, or two, three. O, I see look let’s be honest about this. You can’t escape because I’m everywhere. So don’t fuck with me Sucka. Before, I knew it she had me back at my crib at full term giving birth. This shit was weird as fuck, I won’t tell you exactly how much pain, I was in or where the baby extracted from, but let me tell you the 3 minutes of torture, I endured that baby was mine. Hey Bitch come back with my baby you dig, or I would be forced to kill your boney thin wig wearing ass in 2.5 but when she turn, and uncovered in black blanket what, I thought was a baby, but looked more like something that dropped down out of a space ship. After, I reached in my pocket snorted a few lines of cokyinah, I was high as Georgia pine and had a instant change of heart, I told her to keep that ugly motha fucka that’s alright it aint mine. What the hell is it anyway you no good trifling nasty son of a bitch. She said Damn all that nigga suffer you will cause in the case of Lil’ Jerome. You ARE THE FATHER, I drooped to my knees. This don’t make no damn sense Ion got know more pills, I done fugged up, and she named she named whatever this motha fucka was after me. Stick a fork in me I’m done. Well at least ain on child support. That’s when she said thank again Sucka, I got papers for that to. She then disappeared with the whole black feather effect, and all I could do was lean back in my chair SHIIIIIIIIIIII!!! August’Rose Astrange

Who Gives a Damn

Years I spent trying to find the perfect somebody is out there maybe not perfect at all but perfect for me, or maybe not even that, I just don't understand the ways of this world, and what is accepted of me August Astrange. Nobody gave this to me but in time things happen because Eve ate Than Adam, but how perfect would a world be if we didn't live surrounded in pain to understand the happiness or pain that follows. Likely in a sense more pain, or do we honestly want that... Constantly talking about what's real what's fake, and in reality most of it starts looking right back at us when we wash our face in the morning upon deciding to wake from the death then. Don't talk to me about pain because I've had it & still live in it. My thing is if you haven't accepted defeat at times to learn how to win then what conversation could come of our conversation if this is all shit to you in the end, I wouldn't know if you read this and realize that you couldn't deal with the pressures of the world & if this did however ignite some bullshit spark to have serious actions behind it. Simply use it as a strength instead of further playing on your weakness because that's not what my writing is about. It's about growth of how I can look back, and always see how far I've come if nobody else ever gave a FUCK!!! these are my stories not yours August'Rose Astrange

Bitter Konclusion

I think in the end people people will think what they want to think and you can only give but so much of your mental to compensate for the emptiness they feel It's a void that nobody can feel but themselves all this and all this is more then I can bear inside my soul pushing towards helping you is taking all of my energy and leaving me weak and helpless down on my floor extending my hand out to what I thought was a friend to in return help me, but you left me in my own emptiness that you drain but what is left of me now better yet what is left of you now that I can no longer help you for you show me the errors your full ora this is not healthy but its how we chose to live ........ August'Rose Astrange I just freestyled this hoped you liked it It's called Bitter ( Konclusion )

This Elmo B.S

I wasn't even going to address it because it's been already ran in the ground completely by the media as it would have, but I have to agree with Wendy Williams.. Elmo is now tainted because of the scandal regardless if the shit is true ( DESPITE THE FACT THAT KEVIN IS CLEARLY A HOMOSEXUAL MAN ) I'm just saying regardless if it's true you have to think about this Elmo is the most successful and the most popular of Sesame Street This man has been the voice of Elmo for years and now these three fuck boys want open up. This makes me think money has to be involved. Why else would they wait til now. See this is what some individuals overlook about the homosexual community. Masterminds of Revenge, and deception All systems go, and the first accuser came forth and when they dug into to his past that's all they found was ( FUCKORY ) It was all this bullshit about he suppose to had drugged them and then proceeded to use sex toys, and all kinds of other gay sexual acts. Then one was like he was so sweet, and caring, I was a virgin before. Give me a fuggin break. You buying this shit. Now I understand that Kevin may very well be guilty but look at the history of what the accusers carry behind them, and all this is suppose to be before or after... Okay before he started out as the voice behind what now is the famous Elmo. A lot of people aren't familiar with the voices behind these Muppets, I figured he was some old ass white man. The only muppet I’ve ever researched was Miss Piggy cause, I wanted to know who did her voice, and found out that 3 different people have done her voice over that time period and they all were men, but it stopped there. Who's doing it now I don't give a fuck. My point is I can look at this shit on two ends. One children aren't stupid they know even if you think they don’t this generation seems to exceed above your intellect. However if the character continues then it could be a serious back lash to what is acceptable in the world of make believe teaching children that it’s okay to do certain things because there beloved Elmo did them ( TAINTED ) Then on another note the company still has to be careful because Elmo is such a overrated Muppet and removing him could mean poor ratings, and a gang of other stupid shit for the show. Whatever they decide to do, I stop watching Sesame Street a long time. This doesn't mean I don't have a heart towards the kids that will miss out on their Tickle Me Elmo if they remove the character, or program. It's been running and educating for so long. Although, I could not stand The Count his annoying ass worked my last nerve, but Cookie Monster is my Nugga, I love him. What … Yal know Cookie Monster is underrated. Never mind obviously that’s another story. Anyway at one point I had a thought to do something to educate kids, but it past as soon as the thought came. When it's a constant watch this. Don’t do this. You can’t say this August ENUFF!!! I'm good on that note. I cuss like a sailor. Bottom line is we as norms to some of them tend to forget that they too were just like us once everybody has skeletons ( EVERYBODY ) But when you in the limelight, and your business is no longer your business. It’s so much worse. We can always go back even when this shit is 50 years old, and say remember when Elmo fuck them lil boys, I said all that to say this some individuals don’t know what’s the next venture for them. You could very well become an celebrity overnight. It’s happen so many times If you live reckless in life, and you think certain shit will stay buried because you become famous. Honestly it’s more grounds for people to Blackmail your ass at all cost. Sometimes you just have to be careful even when you just living your life because the past normally always finds a way to resurface, and you stuck with dealing with all that shit you thought you flushed. I’m August’Rose Astrange Thanks for tuning in.

Confused Says This Best

August Lamarr Astrange- I'm not as in to the Holidays as I was when, I was a kid It spends the life of me as disappointment & sadness, I wont see my Fam on X-Mas because of issues in nobodies fault I'm a hour away & yet its still to far I did a good thing just now for my Bae, but I still think of the concern two days ago, I woke up watching a Movie about Christmas, and as he was getting ready for work, I started to tier up I thought was it because I'm still upset with him or because the Movie was making me feel like home again, or did I just want to be alone in a sense, I didn't know All I know is maybe I need some help in trying to figure it all out because right now I wish I was anywhere, but here

You Fake Ass Old Saint Nyck

This story takes place in hood, I personally don’t live there, but you can say I visit some distant friends, or close ones there. How often you say… Everyday, but that is beside’s the point. It’s not important how many times, I enter the hood. What is important is the Christmas story I’m bout to tell you. Now play along, or listen, or whatever you. Wait is somebody recording me for that crappy ass television show Open Season. O yeah slow moment you’re me, and I’m you staring back at me and this is recording. I’m seriously tripping… Pull yourself together Evelyn God that is such a horrible name. What was my mom thinking that’s right she wasn’t because she was high I’m sure of it. Ummm let me think call me Vanessa like Vanessa Williams, but not thee Vanessa Williams. Okay I’m rambling, and I was suppose to been telling the story. The little girl what was her name. See , I was friends at one point with her mother, but I didn’t pay to much attention to her, I don’t like children which means I don’t care to much for them. I played it cool though, I don’t go around broadcasting that I hate children in a sense. Anyway when she first introduced me to the little girl. The little girl I mean her little girl. It was somewhat chilly outside, and she was wrapped up okay so she wouldn’t catch a cold. Then child protective services would get involved since she obviously had some visible issues, but people do change… eventually. So like yeah when she uncovered the child, I had jumped back, and in my mind I’m like what the hell is that, but when she had saw my reaction, I Had to regroup like Jy quick, and was on some O yeah Man that’s nice. Girl Ahhhh you have a pretty lil girl, but back in my mind I’m thinking I just dodged that bullet. Cause see she like to fight, and I throw hands DOWN!!! So, I mean it was in my best entrance to lie. You mind if I take a picture, I know how some people don’t like it. O nal girl go head its cool she sleeping anyway. Wait she sleep with her eyes open… Never no any mind.  You want to come with me to do some last minute Christmas shopping. O I forgot the streets called her Cigerett because she stayed getting smoked out while burning you out all at the same time. Class 101 in Ho Oligi. They said she had the best head God could ever put on the neck of a female, I wouldn’t know but the streets spoke freely of sexual relations. She didn’t know they talked about it, I knew too damn much, and to be honest it was set in my New Years Resolution to stop hanging with her anyway. It’s bad when Miss Burner who stay around the back of the Duplex in my Grand Mamma yard told me she making me look bad. It’s not like, I didn’t have any other friends, but those were the ones you couldn’t take anywhere without them causing a scene and I embarrass real easy I mean I’m not a prude, but I don’t need any unnecessary attention specially on the holidays. To me it seem like the store be super packed, and long as some of these niggas out here criminal records. She ask me all of what, I had to get, and did I put anything on layaway already cause she saved a lot of money last year on everybody’s gift, I was being nice when, I said who gave you money to do anything with, but she laughed. She didn’t get it. This girl was a straight ear head but I enjoyed her company, I believe that I had spoke way to soon before hours. Everything was cool we went to a few stores, I was able to get most of everything, I intended to get. Got something to eat, but me, I had to say let’s go to one more store. The day before Christmas this bitch showed her ass like, I never seen before. If I could of been I Dream of Jeannie, I would have blinked my ass away from her. Apparently this dude that obviously smashed at one point looked too had been on. Well he was on something that night. Soon as he saw her he yoked her ass up, I stayed around just long enough to see him slap the piss outta her a few times. Call me what you want, but I left. Sure the fuck did leave, I left her ass right in that store with him. Plus, I had to wrap gifts it was already late. By the time, I got home bless his little heart my brother Percy was knocked out, I can’t understand for the life of me why he sleep with his ass turnt up like that. Anyway mom told us not to tell him Saint Nick was a fake, and we all brought his shit. Are you serious this year again Percy is 19 now. It don’t look right to me that a might as well grown ass man still believes in Santa Claus, but I respect my mom a little when she’s not on the stuff. Her head is clear somewhat, and she reasonable, but anyway, I wasn’t going to tell that boy he wasn’t real, I call myself leaving that to the boys in the hood, but it hasn’t worked yet because he doesn’t mention it to anybody but us. He sat out cookies, and everything again this year. He made them and they burnt. Sometimes, I seriously believe he on that stuff just like my drug addict mom. Which is why it’s been long enough, I have a plan this Christmas to solve all this bullshit. ( A few hours later )… I knew my mom would be high as Georgia Pine so, I sent her in the room and gave her a Santa Suit, I cop at a thrift store complete with the in store smell. Told her to go in the front room and set up the gifts, and them hard burnt as cookies while, I keep a look out… Yeah right, I ran in the room and woke up Percy… IT’S CHRISTMAS MOTHA FUCKA WAKE UP!!! He woke up SANTA, SANTA, I knew he would come, but when he ran in the front room, and saw my mom putting gifts, and eating them cookies at the same damn time under the tree with no explanation as to why. This bitch was caught red handed, I laugh so hard. Call it what you want he needed to know. He walked passed me and, and said damn Evelyn all this time, I thought Santa was real when in all reality it’s been my crack headed momma, I can’t say that my feelings aren’t hurt. Why didn’t no body tell me. Well guess what Percy, I just did. Then mom ran up to him trying to plead her innocence, but the damaged had already been done, and my planned worked. Percy please he is real umm, umm I was just helping him baby. SHUT UP HE IS NOT… just stop lying. You high you don’t understand. It’s not funny… Fuck Christmas. You fake ass Old Saint Nick. The End