Kichiro Nobuyuki Soatome

People asking me to pronounce my new kitty Kichiro Nobuyuki's name cause they like what the fuck It's Japanese for starters Kichiro meaning Fortunate Son, and Nobuyuki meaning Truth and Happiness Now how you pronounce it is Ky-Chee-Row and No-Boo-You-Key, or Now-Boo-You-Key So see it's not that hard

Mother Hood

I know I may not be a mother of actual children but now I have three pet in a sense my children like I did before Paris, Hazel, and little tini Kichiro Nobuyuki ( Piktures Coming Soon ) but I mean the point is It's a full time job, and It takes a lot out of you Sometimes you want to relax but you have to feed them on time spend time love them all the time, and the younger they are the more this kick in effect Don't for get doctor visit, and potty training The late night crying, and there's a lot more I'm not complaining by far cause this is what I do, I Luv being a Mom I Luv my Babies but motherhood is Exhausting..

Killed Without a Trace

At the time I didn't feel the need to ever explain why my action were as they were doing the grieving period of everybody else, I watch so much pain, and guilt ridding individuals try to cope. Everybody had a different reason why they cried in her name, but when they looked at me, I was as if nothing at all had took place. Now this is my side of the story..... What happened on the night my sister Jennette Finney was killed.

I try not to think about that day, I erased the actual date from my mind, but I will never forget that night. Me, my neffie, and 22's was all together as we always were seem like a lot during that summer, and around, I would say almost quarter to 1 am we was leaving to go back to the house to go cook, when as we came to the end of the road. There were so many police detouring everybody to turn right, and anybody else just couldn't get threw. We normally took the back roads. So nobody thought nothing of it because accidents sometimes happen on route 10. When we got to the house Jennette wasn't there. It was strange, but not that strange she's usually up waiting to talk, or play around with us before she went to bed for work in the morning. Personally we know she just wanted to make sure we were all in the house safe. She was just that kind of person...GOD, I miss that.  You could tell before we got there she was sitting in the front room on the sofa because mail was everywhere, and we laugh, and joked about her having a date, and she went to go meet this guy yada, yada. So we cooked ate, and fell asleep. Not realizing that she never came, back home. O, I forgot to mention that in the mist of us joking around before we got in the house good, and realized that she wasn't home Mario said. Man, I hope that wasn't my mom in that accident, but I was like yeah right. My sister was the best driver, I knew. She taught all of us how to drive on down to my mother. Well, I say around 4 that morning it was a loud knock at the door. I'm like what the hell, I thought I was dreaming at first . Mind you, I slept on the sofa damn near right by the door. So when, I popped up, I could see her room, and her bed was empty, but she had a key, and their was no reason to bang on the door like that unless something had happened. When, I opened the door it came together real fast. It was a police officer, and he asked me does she lived their. Yes I'm her brother what happened. He told me that she had been in a car accident, and he couldn't tell me to the extent only the hospital where they transported her, I thanked him. Got Mario, and 22's stop by my mom's house so they could drive. Me, and my dad had a few words, and we all got in the car, I sat in the back, but something strange took place as we got closer to the hospital, I started to have all these flashes of happy times between me and her, and in that moment alone, I knew she was gone, I was just ready to get there so the doctor could tell me what my vision had already confirmed. When we got to the hospital Me, Mario, and 22's ran to the information desk found out where she was being kept I'm sorry the room we had to wait in. 5 minutes later the doctor came in tried to stall, but I told him. Look this is her son his girlfriend, and I am her brother. Just tell us what's going on. He then proceeded to say that when she got there they had to do immediate surgery, and she had a small cut on her spline, but somehow she flat lined, and passed on, I didn't ask anything more I already knew. For me there was know real reaction. My Mom, and Dad came in shortly after he told us, and I delivered the news to them. Then everybody else was called. After that I left the room, and remained in the hall way. All, I heard was yelling, and screaming, and why this, and why that. Slowly everybody started arriving, and the ones that couldn't called my phone. It was just not something personally, I wanted to deal with because, I felt at that time, I already made peace with it, I just wanted to be left alone, but I didn't drive so I couldn't escape, I was stuck there having to talk, and explain, and comfort family, and I know it sounds a bit selfish, but I needed me. So when it was time to view the body, I declined on seeing her because, I didn't know what to expect. Shortly after we all went home, and tried to deal wit it all. Nothing was right, but I still showed no real emotions. My other sister Veronica plan a gathering everyday before the funeral where, I never seen so many people, I wasn't feeling it because most of those people there didn't even like her, but that's how it is sometimes, I turned to alcohol that same day 2-11's everyday. 40 Ounces, and I stayed drunk, I didn't look at it as a problem at first nor did, I look at it as a way to cope, I figure if I stayed drunk, and made everybody laugh, I didn't have to deal with nothing, and I didn't I was free, but trapped, I drunk so much, I had to be hospitalized for gastritis, but by the time that happened the funeral was well into a month over, but before the morning of, I had a conversation with 22's about why, I wasn't going to go, and she suggested that it was because, I couldn't go as a girl, but it wasn't that, I never seen a dead body, and I just didn't want my sister to be the first. We had a connection unlike anybody else. She was my best friend. It's so many things, I can say wonderful about her. The list is endless, but personally nothing bad. She lived her life, and she was a beautiful person. She was the best. She has been the only person in my family that accepted me threw the storm. We never argued, or anything, I been close to my sister since before, I could say my first words, I can sit here, and write a book about our relationship, but it's not the time to do so, I just wanted you to understand why my action were a misunderstood, and threw my family not really talking to me, and assuming why, I was acting like I was as a result that, I didn't care, I fell out with a lot of them during that week, and almost got the fighting with my brother because he felt, I should have went to the funeral. All that plus more just took a toll on me, and I left, and stayed gone until after the funeral, I dealt with losing her in all those ways, and since nobody other than 22's and Mario understood me. If it wasn't for them I'd just would have ran, and kept running, I mean everybody deals with grief in their own way. Mine was just to act as if nothing was wrong, and then it would pass, but eventually after it was all said, and done a few weeks later, I sat, and cried to myself, I still do because she was my everything. Not many knew how our relationship was. They don't know, I knew she didn't want me to see her that way, I made that decision to smile no matter what it took to keep that smile. That's how she wanted me to be. Just as she was still alive, and for that she will always remain inside R.I.P Jennette Finney

Murder Still Unsolved ???? Killed by 18 Wheeler hit, and run

Haunting Darkness

Life after Death, I mean I often thought of it, and how would it be. How could it be, or is that the life, and death are already here. If I die, and that's it then what would, I have to look forward to.  As a child, I was  told that it's a much peaceful world after life in itself, But some aren't so sure of this. Who am I to argue their belief when, I don't understand some what it took to get them to there understanding that somehow our God is not real, and how is it possible to believe in something that could very well be a figment of our imagination. Most of you only call upon him when you're in trouble, but know nothing of him when things are at peace. Well let me let you in on a little secret, or not. My mind is already in the land of make believe.. Set so, I could live everyday as a cartoon in which, I kloud ride in the early morning, and would live in a place like Cool World by night. The life of a Ghost cause I'm suppose to be dead remember, but the grown ups lied about having a peaceful world because somewhere in between this so called life. It was a small fraction of green, or was it indigo. Ether way it was there, I didn't know yet, but he was already dead, I crossed over unknowingly touching his invisible light. Wait, I don't understand what is a invisible light. He said a light that separated our worlds we know as life, and then death. Visible to him. Yet invisible to them. Upon your passing across dimmed the light that has now forever bonded us together. We can only cross over together or not at all. He was a black cat that had one eye, and appear to had been tortured, beating, and bruised , I believe he suffered, but I dare not to ask at least not at first. Some how in my sick twisted mind. If I could have had a ghost cat amongst the living, I imagined it would have been him. O but you do now. Only difference is we are of the dead. So now you may lived in such a place outside your mind if that be the clouds above, or in the depths of what you a imagined a cool world would be. A grave yard is where our once living remains shall be. Undisturbed, and without intrusion.. However this marks a brand new journey for us. They say individuals in life cross paths for a reason, but this is also true amongst the decease, I came to this place not at my on doing. How, I appear is how, I was, and that is how you appear here. Your disease fatality summoned your death like appearance. At some point before this tragedy you were a beautiful girl. The world is not meant for us to understand he said to me, and that made more sense then anything, but how did, I get here from telling you a reasonable theory of what certain individuals believe between life and death... To actually somehow lying to rest myself. Then my understanding became clear, I had fallen to rest, and dreamed of such a new era, and before, I had a chance to open my eyes, I faded into an invisible light......His name is Dark.

                                                                                                              By Guyahnah Bradshaw

1st Lady Queen of Smithfield Virginia

August'Lamarr Astrange is not that of the norm, I mean don't get me wrong, I do some normal shit like I sure other individuals do. As that of simple as walking down the street. Taking a damn good bath, and washing in between my legs. As some of you don't do at all. Brushing my teeth, and putting on long lasting deodorant 24/7 protection darlings. These are the normal things that take place in 3rd party August'Lamarr's world, I am 1, and 0 10 years in the game, and it's really been that long since August'Lamarr. Sorry Sun Shyne back then appeared out of then air form what was use to be a Epic Fail of a individual. Say what you will this is what, I feel of myself back then a mess all wrong. It wasn't until, I embrace who, I really was inside my heart of everything, I loved that my personal could shine threw, and marked the real me, I was the most talked, and lied about for a full two years because the small town, I was born and raised inside of couldn't grab hold of it, I turn into something that of a celebrity. No a paid celebrity, but I was, and actual still is a house hold name in that area which may not seem to be a lot to some people, but my take on it... Coming from where, I was before, and now my name stayed in peoples mouths good, or bad it did not fucking matter to me long as, I was talked about. Did it fuck my life up in that area. Sure Niggas that might of wanted to talk to me didn't in clear view, but any available chance to slip threw the cracks was gladly taking, and sent the town into a frenzy because they wanted to know so bad who, I was fucking that stories of this, and that were all over everywhere, but I don't ever kiss, and tell my own sources. Which certain at that time of me running lose. Kept them. You have to respect the game, and I never have gotten joy out of pulling Niggas cards like, I know a lot of yal have, and or are still doing so, I am a breed of my own, I came and did my own shit, and played by my own rules, I respect the Niggas in the street, and that's just me. Some might now one to admit at what I'm about to say but, I am the Queen of Smithfield Virginia, and I paved the way for those girls in that area to do what they do 10 Years in the game, and I admit I took a back seat, but that was because, I stop, and found love, and would rather concentrate on that, but you never lose your title. Younger bitches may come, and would never know, but I know me, and they know me 2013 Marks my return as August'Lamarr formally of Sun Shyne. I'm in a better place now, and I love Life will only get better from here. Thanx to all my Devoted Fans, and lets not forget my Luvley HATERS BECAUSE WITH OUT YOU WITH OUT YOU Sun Shyne would not be the house hold name she is today....

When The Attraction Fades Away

Guyahnah Bradshaw- Actually the reason behind this post is because, I want to address my issues that simply might not be your issue with the way most individuals value that if a mere look, I am to myself a very attractive individual that I'm sure most would agree, but wait that is only a select %. What happens when the other % don't see what you thought the whole world saw. Getting with a person based on a Trophy Piece to have that unforgettable individual on by your side, and having the world view you as that it couple. Does that really validate who the F, I is. I'm saying this because, I too was so caught out there that if you didn't have Perfect Teeth a Six Pack, Straight White Teeth, and a Big Dick, and you had to have all three. No Exceptions, and everything that I was looking for in looks, I lag to find the personality traits, I didn't care at that time. That is until, I start to realize how bored, and alone, I was feeling while, I was with these God sent from Heavens. It's a proven FACT... That some of the most attractive people in the world have no clue just how boring they are to be around because of the fact they are always getting told how attractive they are. That it becomes something they are content with relying on, I mean I know I had some of the sexiest guys in a 18 to 26 year old period, but I changed it up, and started to go for the guys that were less attractive to me, but still had some type of sex appeal, and the boredom came to a complete halt affective immediately. All those years, I spent chasing some of the sexiest men out. It's when, I stop trying to be so top notch in what, I wouldn't settle for, and lower my high expectation on would now was let's go with the flow because in all honesty. Some of the ugliest motha fuckas can bring you so much joy because to them. It is what it is, and don't get me wrong not all attractive individuals are this way, but a lot are, and me personally, I just don't need someone in the mirror more then giving. It's only one female in my crew, and I kick shit. Enough Shit for the both of us. So my advice to anybody reading this post. Don't be so quick to allow a look dictate who you be with because what happens When The Attraction Fades Away.

                                                                                       P.S....You you're not aware that you are one of these people. History all it does is has a recurrence factor, and you find out that you find it had to find a person because you based it on your high standards It's been real.        

                                                                                                                  THANX FOR READING
                                                                                                                         Guyahnah Bradshaw

Fear

Fear is only in our minds, but it's taking over all the time???

Updates 10/2/12

Guyahnah Bradshaw- I haven't done a blog post in a while because I been busy doing some things to ready for certain up coming projects, I been threw yet another name change. Which most find unusual judging from the circumstances, but at the end of the day, I have to for fill what makes my happen. In which, I had this amazing idea to start my own Underwear Line, but not realizing how much work had to go into it, and not having the funds to put that much into. Goes the old saying. You have to spend money to make more money, or waist money trying only to hurt your pockets, and not making any profit back. ( EPIC FAIL )  Guyahnah simply does not want that to happen. So, I have gone back to my first Luv in order not only to rise to the top becoming my own brand, but also doing what, I luv in the process. Which is what a career is based on if not then you just have a job, and who wants to work pay check to pay check for the rest of their lives, I know I don't I am a very talented individual capable of the following Make Up, Fashion, Writing, and Animal Specialist, I am however still learning a lot more about being a Animal Activist, but this comes in time. Right now my main focus is Writing, I am working on a Children's Book Series inspired by my pets. A Gray, and White kitten named Hazel' Cocaine, and a Pitbull puppy named Paris They are full a simple word called Unique, and every animal has it's own unique personality, and last but not least my show will still be aired on YouTube however, I don't know now if it will be this year because so much has to be put into it, but I will bring you certain questions, and answers before the show actually airs. That's all for now. 

                                                                                                                         Guyahnah Bradshaw