Wilmarella- I know, I haven't brought you an original post of my own in a while and my viewers I'm sure could be thinking. What's going on with me... I've been going threw some things, but trust me I'm coming back with new material soon enough. In the meantime this article is not something, I myself have written, but I found it to be interesting on so many levels. Simply because just when you think it's nothing nobody would do to survive this world. Well they would. All, I can say is if you do take the time to read this like, I did, I would love for once to know what you think of it. Me personally, I have none because if it works for them. All, I can say is let go and let God if that means anything to anybody any more. This article starts now.......)
'Don’t take no meds, don’t go to a doctor. And that’s what I did. I sabotaged myself to get my numbers down.'
This article that you are about to read is probably one of the most disturbing article that you have reading this year! Check out the article after the jump!
Tye Fortner has fine, delicate ears, a newly pierced eyebrow, and a trim beard. He’s wearing honey-colored contact lenses and a Jimi Hendrix T-shirt. “I wanted to be presentable,” he explains as a photographer snaps his portrait. “I was going to buy an outfit, but it was so hot.”
We are standing outside his apartment block in the Fordham area of the Bronx in New York City on a muggy Friday afternoon in June, a few days before Pride. A woman walks by pushing a wheeled cart from which she’s selling Italian ices. “Hey mama!” Fortner calls to her and asks for a scoop of mango and cherry that stains his teeth red. Refreshed, he leads the way up the stairs to the roof of his building, where he takes out a packet of Newports and, perched high above the city, begins to tell his story.
Fortner was 22 and homeless when he started feeling weak, with crushing stomach pain and terrible headaches. A sex worker from the age of 16, sometimes too high on crack to remember to use protection, he had been putting off the inevitable for weeks before he finally decided to get tested for HIV. The result came back positive.
“My whole world changed,” Fortner says, recalling the moment six years ago when he received his diagnosis. At first it changed for the worse as he struggled to come to terms with his diagnosis.
But then, it changed for the better.
After years of homelessness and a day-to-day existence, Fortner, now 28, was faced with the tantalizing prospect of a place to sleep, regular meals, and more thorough New York City services provided to people who reach a certain stage of the disease. First he would have to meet their diagnosis requirements; then he would receive help.
“I didn’t know about the services,” he says. “I didn’t know that once you have AIDS you’re entitled to all this other stuff.”
That silver lining was a surprise to Fortner. And while it might seem counterintuitive, contracting the virus has made life easier for other young homeless men in New York City, who in return for developing full-blown AIDS gain a roof over their heads and basic services.
This cruel paradox — having to get really sick in order to enjoy a better, more comfortable life — has not gone unnoticed. “I have experienced people [who are] grateful that they have HIV,” says Sage Rivera, a research associate at the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention who has worked with hundreds of LGBT youth. “It’s sort of like a sigh of relief or an extra boost,” he says. “There are a whole bunch of different names for HIV within the [LGBT] community: ‘the monster,’ ‘the kitty,’ ‘the scratch,’ ‘the gift that keeps on giving.’ So people say, ‘I have the kitty — so now I can get my place. Now I can get hooked up; I can get my food stamps, I can get this, I can get that.’
“Other people say, ‘I do not know what I would have done without the monster.’ I can think of five boys, automatically, who’ve told me this.”
And it’s not just those who already have AIDS who view it as a lifeline; some young men who test negative aspire to contract the disease as a way out of trouble. Rivera knows at least one man who planned to have unprotected sex on purpose, an attitude he sums up thus: “My life is not getting better. I need a helping hand, and it seems like the only way I can get a helping hand is by getting sick.”
For Fortner, the phenomenon of young men deliberately contracting HIV is dispiriting but not surprising. “When you’re on the streets every day — winter, summer, spring, and fall — and you find a way to have an apartment of your own, it looks better,” he says. His own experience is instructive: Once his AIDS was diagnosed, he was astonished at how much easier it was to live in New York City. “Right now the rent for my apartment is $1,150, but because I’m on the program I only pay $217, which leaves me with about $400 a month,” he says. “That’s still a struggle, but I feel gifted, because one way or another I pull through.”
Here’s the thing, and before, I get to dish on some shit my viewers probably would be like. WTF... Keep in my mind to have an open mind because in all honest. This is mainly geared towards women for simply not taking into consideration, and I’m completely focused for once. Even though I’m watching R&B Divas, but I’m not going to let it suck me in all the way. That crazy ass Lil Mo. So… and this is how the story goes. Me and some of the girls were talking earlier today about why guys rather not tell they women that they in fact get it in with other Niggas. Which was easy for me to answer, I simply told them to picture a scenario? You basically in house pussy for your man, and if not. Trust and believe he can go, and get pussy and ass from any other bitch by the picking. Real talk, but here’s the thing. Where can he go to get some good dick because contrary to popular belief? Not all men want to fuck the obvious fucked, and would rather get hisen dug and then dug out. Somehow that became confusing and they didn’t get it at first, I had to explain it to them a few more times. Ending with that segment being as if a man can sit there, and brag on all the pussy and ass he gets. From one chick to the next… Then for those same men that fuck around with other men. They shouldn’t have an issue bragging on when the last time they had some good dick, but it’s not going to happen? Because this is not the kind of world we live in as of yet. Me personally, I feel if women didn’t make it so hard for men to want to explore certain things out of the ordinary with them. Then maybe more would stay on the right side. Instead of crossing over into the twilight zone. Even the ladies said if they’re current boyfriends were to ask them to perform certain acts that another man would jump at the opportunity to do. A. They would break up with them or B, I would feel uncomfortable, but then you get upset and completely bent out of shape when he finds other means that’s not you. Even if it’s a toy. By now, I hope that my readers are catching on to where this is going. If not… here’s a simple way of putting it. It’s a lot of men that happen to like some form of ass play. It happens to be an erogenous zone. ( GOOGLE IT ) Now when feeling comfortable to bring that particular idea to they’re women, and not getting basically belittled to if not nothing. That’s a whole nother unheard chapter because they rather not deal with a bunch of ass backwards shit o hell nal. Now you into this gay shit and just a whole lot of other degrading, derogatory, and side neck comments. Really overdoing it, I mean honestly I’m not a fan of niggas on the down low at any given time. Just cause it’s all the way wrong and frankly you should be completely honest if you are into that type of lifestyle, but let’s be real if you made him feel comfortable knowing he could come to you about it, and not only that… If you not even trying to consider compromising on the fact if he were to come to you about it. Real nigga shit would you rather him take it there with another nigga. Cause he’s not going to tell you. He rather ride it out till the wheels fall the fuck off until he gets caught. So there you have it, and I’m not saying that all guys fuck with niggas because they’re women just don’t get, or just won’t do it, but for the ones who would rather let they’re women perform such task, I personally would. Hell he doesn’t have an issue when it comes to pleasing me, I think each and every woman should strap up, and fuck the hell out of them niggas at least once. Shut up get on your knees. Put your head down and take it like the bitch that you know, I am when, I take yours. Hands Down. That’s all folks. LEAVE YOUR COMMENTS AT THE BOTTOM OF THE PAGE!!! THANX
