Confused Says This Best

August Lamarr Astrange- I'm not as in to the Holidays as I was when, I was a kid It spends the life of me as disappointment & sadness, I wont see my Fam on X-Mas because of issues in nobodies fault I'm a hour away & yet its still to far I did a good thing just now for my Bae, but I still think of the concern two days ago, I woke up watching a Movie about Christmas, and as he was getting ready for work, I started to tier up I thought was it because I'm still upset with him or because the Movie was making me feel like home again, or did I just want to be alone in a sense, I didn't know All I know is maybe I need some help in trying to figure it all out because right now I wish I was anywhere, but here