Was I Afraid Too

Was I Afraid Too Once, I thought, I did everything, I could do to in order to keep him by his side. If felt so dreamy each time he said my name, and with that somehow he became blind to my eyes, I can’t say that he loved him because wouldn’t get that far, I had needs that obviously wasn’t his, I was too stupid and the opposite of unforgiving. Smile for the fans even though he wasn’t even worth it, but for some reason I played myself into thinking he was. He use to sooth me when, I became caught in the rain. Well no, I guess he wasn’t… Maybe, I now that I think about it I only saw what my eyes wanted to see. One month led to two weeks on to just a couple of days, but my heart tricked me to feel it was certain. Scratching a quarter of an inch below the surface, I felt I needed him in my life. All my friends tried to warn me, but when you’re so caught out there. What part of that do you really want to have anything to do with? He said he loved me only when we fucked. Let’s be fair in all reality that’s all it was to him. I said it because it’s what I felt. Dealing with the cards, I was dealt in a set manipulation to gain more than he had from the next, I was there threw it all. Breaking my bones to mold the legs as he refuses to stand. Constantly telling me nothings change, I sacrificed all that had, but no matter what, I drained you cut and drained more. Eventually the pain became a too much to bear, I could no longer energize. Was, I afraid to walk away from you, but hating you is what, I needed to do to reverse the hurt you set fire to me. Sort out in the end a marriage proposal that was in efforts to get me to reverse, but a dial to and all of seven months later, I hated him within that moment more than, I loved him. Why they play the ones that will always hold them down, I have no answer. No regrets only sadness found there Naudia Died because he Killed all she was because, I was afraid too