Insyde PART 2
Even though, I’ve been in my own world for most of my life, I still come to the thoughts of realization at times, and have to face the world. Mostly alone, but still I’m here. One thing about it, I know that my life is the way it is because, I didn’t realize, I had what it took to be successful. My whole concept has been to speak on everything, I want, or wanted to do in life instead of actually shutting the fuck up, and doing so. Which is why I’m here yet very much unsuccessful, anything can be replaced. So they say, but what about life itself, or maybe in another life, I guess than anything can be replaced. How could dinosaurs roam this earth for millions of years only to be wiped completely out within a single instant, I often think to myself will this also happen to us, and a new race should start a new beginning. Remembering the humans that once walked the earth, I thought at one point, I could see certain things that others couldn’t. My dreams often told stories that started to come true, but not like the actual events. So it was up to me to break down the pieces, and place them where they needed to be. By this time it would already be too late, and if something bad were to happen, I couldn’t prevent it. Prime example just the other night while, I was waiting for my fiancé to come home, I dosed off for a split second. Only to be awakened by an all black butterfly that shot cross my face. People feel that anything black like crows, ravens, and black cats symbolizes death, but me, I beg to differ only because, I see the beauty in those creatures, I had an all black cat once, and even though, I hate birds, I find that the mysteriousness of crows, and ravens an magnificent wonder, but all, and all people do fear what they don’t understand and that’s with anything. Sorry, I got off the point, I tying to make about the butterfly. A couple nights after a boy was shot, and killed in my apartment complex in broad daylight, I wasn’t thinking at the time about the butterfly and could this have been the reason behind its sudden appearance. In the meantime I’ll be sure to keep my eyes open as to anything off balanced…. You’d be surprised the people you meet that can’t go anywhere past what they use to on a daily basis. So that means if stupidity is a daily fact of life then you can’t get upset when that’s all you get from them, I myself will always look for a challenge in everybody that, I run across just because, but unfortunately, I can count on one hand how many have been that challenge for me. I’m not intimidated by different. I’m intrigued by a sense of diversity. Give me that you can converse back and forth with me about any giving subject. Even if you don’t understand the reasons why certain things are the way they are. Talk about it anyway. You be surprise what somebody else can open your eyes to. Leave your comfort zone sometimes, I do it often. Most people wake up in the morning, and one of the first things they do is take a bath. At least, I do anyway. I’m just talking to give you a feel of how, I am, I can’t sing at all, but I sometimes daydream about it. Being able to hit notes from some of my favorite songs. Not the music of today per say. More so old school. How is that in my perfect world, I was supposed to be married at 30, but got serious cold feet about it all. Even still to this day, I wonder if I’m doing the right thing by me, I just have so many questions clouding my head. In the end, I know, I never wanted to be alone, but at the same time this is no reason to hold on and what did that black butterfly symbolize, I have not a single lead other than the recent murder?
Even though, I’ve been in my own world for most of my life, I still come to the thoughts of realization at times, and have to face the world. Mostly alone, but still I’m here. One thing about it, I know that my life is the way it is because, I didn’t realize, I had what it took to be successful. My whole concept has been to speak on everything, I want, or wanted to do in life instead of actually shutting the fuck up, and doing so. Which is why I’m here yet very much unsuccessful, anything can be replaced. So they say, but what about life itself, or maybe in another life, I guess than anything can be replaced. How could dinosaurs roam this earth for millions of years only to be wiped completely out within a single instant, I often think to myself will this also happen to us, and a new race should start a new beginning. Remembering the humans that once walked the earth, I thought at one point, I could see certain things that others couldn’t. My dreams often told stories that started to come true, but not like the actual events. So it was up to me to break down the pieces, and place them where they needed to be. By this time it would already be too late, and if something bad were to happen, I couldn’t prevent it. Prime example just the other night while, I was waiting for my fiancé to come home, I dosed off for a split second. Only to be awakened by an all black butterfly that shot cross my face. People feel that anything black like crows, ravens, and black cats symbolizes death, but me, I beg to differ only because, I see the beauty in those creatures, I had an all black cat once, and even though, I hate birds, I find that the mysteriousness of crows, and ravens an magnificent wonder, but all, and all people do fear what they don’t understand and that’s with anything. Sorry, I got off the point, I tying to make about the butterfly. A couple nights after a boy was shot, and killed in my apartment complex in broad daylight, I wasn’t thinking at the time about the butterfly and could this have been the reason behind its sudden appearance. In the meantime I’ll be sure to keep my eyes open as to anything off balanced…. You’d be surprised the people you meet that can’t go anywhere past what they use to on a daily basis. So that means if stupidity is a daily fact of life then you can’t get upset when that’s all you get from them, I myself will always look for a challenge in everybody that, I run across just because, but unfortunately, I can count on one hand how many have been that challenge for me. I’m not intimidated by different. I’m intrigued by a sense of diversity. Give me that you can converse back and forth with me about any giving subject. Even if you don’t understand the reasons why certain things are the way they are. Talk about it anyway. You be surprise what somebody else can open your eyes to. Leave your comfort zone sometimes, I do it often. Most people wake up in the morning, and one of the first things they do is take a bath. At least, I do anyway. I’m just talking to give you a feel of how, I am, I can’t sing at all, but I sometimes daydream about it. Being able to hit notes from some of my favorite songs. Not the music of today per say. More so old school. How is that in my perfect world, I was supposed to be married at 30, but got serious cold feet about it all. Even still to this day, I wonder if I’m doing the right thing by me, I just have so many questions clouding my head. In the end, I know, I never wanted to be alone, but at the same time this is no reason to hold on and what did that black butterfly symbolize, I have not a single lead other than the recent murder?
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