Simple Dreams Become My Complex Reality ???

I knew something was different with me when, I started to have crazy dreams, or maybe they were nightmares because anywhere from the time in between it took to figure it all out, I was to late and death came shortly after. Now I've been trying to figure out a logical reason as to why this has chosen me to share it's burden with. Even though I've always wanted to have some type of super natural power, I guess, I thought that this was all some joke, but when things from my dreams started to happen in real life, I suddenly became nervous as to think could one day it become my own family, or worse me. Even though I'm not afraid to die because, I understand that we all have to leave us alone at one time frame, or another, but my concern is, I wouldn't want to know how, or when, I know somehow, I set me up for this and now living with this has become scary enough wish it away, I never know when it comes. Only when it comes. Sometimes it doesn't happen for months, but I know it will never truly vanish....